Tuesday, March 27, 2012
Mother daughter morning cat fight.
I shut the door to the bedroom and to the upstairs balcony that overlooks the family room. I chose not to engage them, as I would then play into things and fall victim to all sorts of leveraging. I think they wanted it that way. I could predict the events that would unfold in the next half hour, prior to her departure at precisely 4:45 AM. As I hear the stories of the nights shootings on the early news, from the small TV on the kitchen counter through the air duct just to the right of my head, I toss a pillow over the grate. The microwave door opens and slam shut five times. The front door and back door opens and shuts like a big birds wings preparing to take off. Why? We have one dog, one pee.
There it was, the familiar "You should" or "You better", which is followed by a tad bit louder "I already know this!" and then, the all so familiar......"Leave me the #$@% alone!"
This is all pretty normal in our small family. Janie up fixing things so Natalie can get out of the house on time, breakfast, other things important to her day. She "seasons" what she does for Natalie with just the right amount of rhetorical expression, to push her right off the edge, as most parents do, when their kid doesnt want to be bothered or told things that they already know.
I wonder, as I try to concentrate on sleep, what Natalie's room will look like in her apartment next year while trying to imagine her mother not managing the tempo of her life. Perhaps all those noises and my lack of sleep are not all that bad, in comparison to the silence, or not....ifyouknowhatimtalkinbout.